my diary

sometimes i wonder why i write in diaries. every time i read them back, i get goosebumps. lol. or i never read them over since i get disgusted and stuff. because i write about love.

Good Mornin' Sunshine

so today I woke up at 7 and went for a walk outside. okay I lied, I had a doctor's appointment at 830 and I had to go myself because my parents had work. anyway, it was nice walking outside in the morning, breathing the fresh air. I mean, why do we wake up so late and waste half our day? even if we do wake up a tad bit early, we lay in our beds or simply sit in front of the computer. we should go out and absorb the fresh air before it's polluted by the cars and people. my brother asked me to go jog with him but I couldn't because I had an appointment. I would though. I haven't been out this early in the morning and it felt nice. brings me back some childhood memories. haha

so my doctor told me to take off my flipflops but I still had my clothes on. I wore light clothes because I knew they weren't going to make me wear the robe. and she told me that I am
122.5 lbs
5'5 1/2"
okay.. forced it, i am not that tall. and if that's really my height then i want to grow half an inch so i can round it up and be 5'6... eww so beasty
he also showed me a chart and said I am taller than 70% of girls my age and my weight is 50%
I forgot what he said about my BMI (body mass index) but he said it was good and I am healthy or w/e

he told me that I don't need a shot until 2016 because I got all my childhood shots and I was like holy cows lol. but then he sent me to a lab and a girl took blood from my finger. she did it really fast and it hurted lol. she squuzed out the blood from my ring finger. it bleeded a lot.





then I went yum cha with my aunt and my two oldest brothers. as in eating dim sum. and it was only 9 30. felt great because my day was longer lol. we should hang out at 9 from now on.

but anyway so we got the tofu pudding and the lady brought it to us but her fingers were kinda in the bowl and my brother said, "her fingers are in the bowl." and then I gave him a look because she quickly took it out. and then he said, "oh shoot, I'm so used to doing that in vietnam." haha cuhs you know how back there, they don't understand english and you can say whatever you want.
my brother Can told my other brother Nam to finish the food and then Nam was like, "no you eat it." so then Can picked up his chopsticks to get it and I took it and he grilled at me. lol the hell, don't you hate when people want to eat something but they want to be humble and say, "oh its fine, I don't want it." when they really do.
once again he was like, "why are you so fat now, you weren't like that back then." and I was like I'm not fat. and he said, "look at her lips." the fuck lol.

i think they mean i'm big rather than fat

Capsule Letters

um those are not my fingers. in case you're wondering.

i think it'll be cute if, the love of my life, would give me that. don't know what it is?
watch the video. promise me you'll watch the whole thing. because i had to go through the process of recording it with my camera, uploading it to the computer, and cutting out some parts. and now uploading it here. i didn't record some of the parts, even though they were important. i didn't want the video to be long. and if you were to watch the clip down there, stop the music over >>>

Movie is called, A Millionaire's First Love. really good Korean movie, had me crying a lot.
she has a disease since she was young. it's a must watch.




ahh, he's so sweet.

and if you want to watch it, here's the link:
http://www.mysoju.com/a-millionaires-first-love/

i'll love you if you do

since i haven't updated for awhile...

so what's good with my life?

oh nothing really... spent my whole weekend at home because i didn't want to go out. lolll but i started homework today. and like i had this sheet from National Honor Society, Ms. Tsoutsis gave it to me on Friday and i thought it was a questionnaire sheet.
lol. it had like 7 questions, and for question 4, i had to write on a separate sheet of paper about an event NHS can do for the community. question 5 says to write an idea for the NHS Awareness bulletin board. as displayed in the school. and then question 6 says to make a video, flyer, or a powerpoint presentation that would encourage younger people to aim for NHS.
but seriously, are you kidding me? i don't even know what National Honor Society is other than if you get good grades, you get into it. lol....... whatever..

my sister bought me ChocoPie. wooo
my brothers are coming back tomorrow. kinda excited, i hope they bought me good stuff. lol..
my sister's going to dorm. YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY i will miss her though, because who's gonna help me with college stuff? =/ BOTTOM LINE WILL :] lol. idk.

but her birthday's coming up. ima get her something this year. lol.

random fact: today's the first day after 3 months that i actually ate home made rice. lol

anyway. i had some random thoughts here and there. but whatever because i dont even know what they are anymore. LOL

what the hell am i saying?
omg i think i'm going crazy. seriously.
i need a break.
give me a fucking break.

excuse my language


oh my god. i am crazy.
fuck me.

thunder thighs

oh no! my legs are getting bigger again =/